Last night, as I lay in bed thinking back on my day, I realized that I needed to find a place to talk. I feel like I don't understand half of what's going on in my head these days, and maybe if I wrote it all down - I might make sense of my thoughts.
So really, this is just a place for me - like many other people who feel screwed over - to speak my mind with the comfort of knowing that no one I know will ever read this, unless I trust them enough to share it.
I've got life pretty good compared to some and I know that, I go to a private school and I'll go to college - not Ivy League - but I'll get the education that I need to "succeed" in life. I've never been abused. I'm not depressed. This doesn't mean that everything is good and perfect. My emotional stability over the last few years has been a roller coaster, full of ups and downs, mainly to do with that fact that my parents divorced when I was in 8th grade. There was no full out brawling fights between my parents, no custody battles, and no blaming it on us kids. It still hurt - and it still does. I think it always will.
I'm proud of the fact that I don't let the hard times in my life let me see the glass as half empty, I've always been an optimist because I really believe that most (I don't want to say all) people want to be good. It makes looking at the world just a little bit brighter. That light is definitely worth it.
I've gotta run now and do some history homework that I've been putting off (aren't you supposed to have fun at 16?) so I won't be up hideously late tonight... although I probably will.
That's life though.
later
P.S. I am in love with this song right now. It's amazing.
